There are times I have a very clear image of a painting in my mind. And then I get in front of the canvas. It’s about a 50-50 shot whether the painting on the canvas will look like what’s in my mind. After years of painting, I can get the works where they need to go in the end but it’s so unpredictable as to how when or why some paintings flow together well and others are more of a struggle — sometimes taking years to finish.
The work, the discipline, the practice comes from showing up to the canvas every day. Day after day.
I love this quote from Louis L’Amour—“Start writing, no matter what. The water does not flow until the faucet is turned on.”
In 2018, I’ve been painting a painting every day. It’s been a lot of work but I’ve also learned so much. The challenge has pushed me creatively and I’m more consistently painting work that is successful.
But that little worry, that monkey mind chatter, never leaves. It will whispers doubt.
It whispers, uncertain.